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Goodbye, 2012. - Chicago Burlesque Dancer Red Hot Annie Weinert
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Red Hot Annie / Ann Marie Weinert
Date: 2012-12-31 12:46
Subject: Goodbye, 2012.
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Here we are again, the last day of the year.

I love new beginnings!

2012, you brought me into the 21st century by filling my schedule up so thoroughly that I had to start using Google calendar instead of the planner system I'd used for 10 years. I watched my first burlesque opera open and directed my second, created two new acts (one of which was a flying act on the silks!), trained and taught my body to move more like a dancer through classes, classes, classes. I fucked up my hip/knee, realized what I wanted out of burlesque, and allowed myself the freedom to take it.

I lost no time when drama knocked and knocked and knocked...and eventually tried to force her way in. I locked the door and walked away, letting the fragments of other friendships go with. Then, later, took a brief glance through the peep hole long enough to realize why I had locked the door in the first place. And now, I realize what it feels like to have successfully MOVED ON! :)

I made so many new friends...really, so many found ME.
I watched many of my long-time friends move to new places.
I welcomed more babies into my family (literally and metaphorically)!

I looked a huge transition straight in the eye, shrinked back in fear, braved on, shrinked again, and then finally accepted responsibility and started down the road of hard changes to become a better partner.

I stopped caring what people thought of me - or at least, made huge strides towards autonomy and being the kind of leader I want to be, as opposed to waffling on being the kind of person/leader others expect me to be.

I started projects I had no intention of finishing.
I stopped saying "yes" to performance gigs I didn't really want.
But still performed burlesque for the 400+ time. (Literally.)

I saw more theatre. (SO MUCH MORE THEATRE!)
I did more zombie & special Fx makeup than all the 10 years I've been doing makeup added together.

I traveled like a maniac, visiting places Albuquerque, Austin, Paris, London, Edinburgh, Glasgow, Las Vegas, Montreal, Charleston, and more.

I performed at the Burlesque Hall of Fame, a dream come true!

We celebrated the one year anniversary of Vaudezilla Studios with filled classes.

2012 has been one of the best years of my life in so many ways. My new year's resolution this year was to "find balance," and I still find it ironic that I basically spent the first 6 months of the year completely off balance, over-worked, and over-stretched. But, I think that burst the bubble in some ways - really allowing me to scale back and refocus. Who knows? Balance is a difficult word for me - sometimes it means relaxation, sometimes it means conquest, sometimes it means knowing when to say when.

I do believe I found more balance.

And now I'm ready to create again. Visual works, expanding my performance repertoire (outside of burlesque), and ultimately anything involving creation! It's easy to see what I want to do for this New Year's Resolution - I can't stop thinking and talking about new works and ideas, which is exactly where I like to be when it comes to being inspired!

In 2013, I will create more art.


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