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Ennui in the Lack of Challenge - Chicago Burlesque Dancer Red Hot Annie Weinert
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Red Hot Annie / Ann Marie Weinert
Date: 2011-09-30 07:54
Subject: Ennui in the Lack of Challenge
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Here's the point in the morning where I'm *not* going to chump out of yoga. Yes. Right here...

Last night, I spent some time talking to My Love about where I want to go from here. This nagging sense of ennui has burrowed in deep. I just want something new...something harder...something less predictable. That's what I'm craving right now.

The part of me that loves to be challenged always bumps right up against the pragmatic part of me that demands that whatever I invest myself in have a suitable pay-off. I don't like starting something I can't finish.

I always crave being in a learning environment, so I'm not surprised that all of the ideas I've got about how to be challenged also have some degree of discipline and committment in that realm:
- Continue aerial classes
- Learn spanish
- Commit to costume classes
- Commit to prop building classes
- Join a swim team
- Teach myself more hula hoop tricks
- Start an epic long-term project for some theoretic epic appearance
- Commit to business classes (will this even be interesting?!)

In the meantime, of course, I've also got two businesses that need my attention and time, so I can't be out Learnin' til all hours of the morning. There's still a lot of things to do before the business-side of things can run without me (not that I want it to, exactly), and I still have the big problem of how to maintain 3 different schedules at once (Personal Obligations, Studio Renters, and Beauty Parlor) that I fear involves finding a new way to keep my schedule that won't be as convenient as my current way (which has allowed me to overlook a couple things as of late, grr).

Anyways, that's the relatively mundane state of my world right now. :)

Over and out.

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User: snickersaddict
Date: 2011-10-01 05:45 (UTC)
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Learn Spanish and then practice it with me! :)

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